a day out with lala yesterday.

and it seems that shes my unforgettable and dearest ex that leads me to fall in love into her whenever im with her.

february is the time when we broke up.

but till today, we are close eventough we live far from each other.

boon lay now have full of memories.

i dont know what will happen next.

now, i feel happy and great with shameer, helmi, zaini, fir, wan whom i call them my mates and also my bestmate who just celebrated her birthday last three days.

one thing, i really want be like those days when i have someone to be in contact and loved.

that tragedy on july 26 is my last happiest moment where i get to know hanifayana.

we grew close day by day but it ended on 04 august and thats what i call a tragic lifestory.

i name her as the tragic number 18.

till that 04 august, im trying hard to find a NEW one.

lets recap, after that, fadilah is the one who brings me up.

and then, things ended and we lose contact.

then its yasmin and we both stay quiet.

next its hanis, then we lose contact.

then its sarah, i want to stay clear.

after that is kelly then nadya.

and now?

all of them i didnt went to the next stage.

a long term relationship is what im into now.

not to those one month or even one week relationship.

let love come by itself.

seriously, i do envy those guys with preety-hot girlfriends and they look damn sweet!

okaylah, till here.