the very day, we sent songs to each other. and somehow, i felt so interested in knowing you more. day after day im so in love with everyday of my school life. and you make me wanna go to school always. and yeah, from there i came out of this gadissekolahadalahcinta phrase. and i know, it sounds so irritating and im pretty sorry. it was then the first time i feel that im really into someone. from friends, it turn out to crush and from crush, i fell in love. however, all of that change on 130307. you are not the one which i knew when you are back from overseas and we start to lose contact. but, im still happy as i can still see you in school and every friday nights. we only exchanged smile. and i still remember that you told me to hold on and stay there in your heart. and when i feel so fcuked up, i will always read your sweet messages and it will turn out to be fine.

i can see that you are avoiding me. and in that case, i should better avoid you too. maybe, i will change back to my old religious class as there's nothing to look forward too. its not that i've gave up on you. but just, i don't really know till when i should act this way. they told me i've wasted time and even tears. im just afraid to talk to you and even smile at you again. call me a stalker, im one. im a stalker which kept going after you. you are just special to me. a very special one. and thanks for everything. and im thankful that once, i've met someone like you in my life. thanks and again, sorry.

i will erase the gadissekolahadalahcinta from my heart slowly as i can sense that you want me to.

first of all, sorry to the watchoutmates for not joining you guys to celebrate zaini's birthday. and to the schoolmates, you guys made my day. so yeahh, yesterday 3/4 of the mldds kids who participated in the recent syf slack at Jalan Kayu as mdm lafrieda wanted to treat us. we slack at Cafeela around 1 hour with non-stop gossips and laughter. well, i really love mdm lafrieda. she's the best teacher in school la seyy!

so, after Jalan Kayu, the schoolmates proceed to Orchard to meet rezal. okay, 8/9 of the schoolmates are from Seng Kang Sec and seven are from mldds while hudaa is in girl guides. the other 1/9 of the schoolmates is rezal whose from St. Hildas. yeahh, we are a mixture of humans with different personality and style. so yesterday, hudaa was absent for the schoolmates outing. thats sad. we then all over town and in and out of shopping centres and finally to esplanade. okay, i realised something, esplanade is covered up with malays huh? and its like mostly malays. hahahaa, try going there at friday, saturday and sunday night.

we then went to the old juvenile court and slack there. after much of cam-whoring, we walk towards city hall mrt and home sweet home. thats all. and thanks to shasha as shes made my day.

im seriously in a state of mind. i don't know what to do right now. and i miss those time badly. i just miss those straight days, gadissekolah.

okay, mid year examination was pretty okay. i did try my best! paper one, composition. i chooses the topic about friends. you know why? because i have alot of ideas and some personal experience regarding those so called 'friends'. and yeahh, i did both the section A and B seriously. and english paper two, i waste on hour on drawing and sketching at the back of the paper. and it turn out to be wonderful. hahhaa. and yeahh, i hope i pass my english examination.

so, after that, proceed to block zero for an hour. at around 2.30 pm, walked to CP to meet nareeni, her sister, reezal and ainy. so there was seven altogether including me, mazlan and fadzil. we went to vivo city as nareeni wanna shop for clothes at forever 21 while i went to topman to get the slipper which is on 30 percent discount. thanks to eera. we then had our lunch at ljs and procced back home.

relegious class will start in 45 minutes time and im getting ready to meet hamimmah and amirin to pass them something. and yeahh, there exam for religious class today. and mldds kids, tomorrow, cikgu lafrieda will blanjer us at Jalan Kayu. please don't be late!

okay, i miss you and i love to see you everday.

it's been a while since i last update my blog. all thanks to my tight schedule due to the upcoming exams. i had been mugging hard all these while till late night eventhough mid-year exam is not that important. im studying for the sake of getting good grades so my parents won't look down on me like they used to last summer. and qhyfdjrpghdordywe, mid-year is tomorrow! i hope i will succeed, insyallah. i don't need flying colours, i just need good and improve grades.

lets talk about life. i really pity those kids who kept criticising, bad-mouthing, discriminating and in fact, all the negative shits that they did to a simple human or group. from my point of view, all of this are caused by jealousy. well, i think you kids should just get a life. stop acting like you are the almighty or whatever lame nonsense. seriously, don't hate us or badmouth my group of friends. coz why, they are cool and we are cool. and we do have great friends around us that we really love unlike you guys whom trying hard to make friends and kill us slowly by bad-mouthing about us. last phrase, get a life and i believe in karma instead of revenge.

and girl, i miss the old you. however you still made my day by smiling at me in school. im still holding on, i hope.

gadissekolahadalahcinta.

it was an happening life and death experience yesterday. like so finally, all of the watchoutmates agreed to go to OCH. and i love the watchoutmates as whatever they plan, it will come true and will turn out to be happening. thanks ah guys!

so yeah, zaini, ida, shameer, firdaus met under my block at around 2.30 pm. we then 27-ed to tampines and met helmi, wan and syafiqah there. when we alight from the bus, ida needed to go to the toilet badly, therefore we walked to Tampines National Library for the sake of going to the toilet. and guess what! two ladies exit from the library while all of us was walking towards the library. and it was Sri Hanifayana (last girlfee) and her cousin. and yes, i was shocked and so was she! i've met her twice coincidentally and we kept shouting the same thing when we saw each other " OH MY GOD!!". we then chit chat for awhile and went seperate ways. and, shes gorgeous and im cute eh hani? hahaha. so then, we walked to tampines interchange and boarded bus 29 all the way to Changi.

we arrived exactly opposite the Old Japanese School. we didn't went in to the Old Japanese School as theres surveillance cameras everywhere at the entrance. we then walked towards one of the so called army building which is located near the OCH. we only walked halfway on the bridge and u-turned as theres surveillance cameras too. we only took some pictures at the protected area and walked all the way to OCH. ashraff and fadzil was waiting for our arrival. so yeahh, they are our tour guide for the day as non of the watchoutmates had been to OCH. and there, the journey begun.

"oi, lincah la masuk, korang dua lead kiter semua, kiter da tak sabar ni!" so yeah, we went into the creepy building walking two by twos most of the time. and we was pretty shocked as we was welcomed by a kain kafan which was covered with patches of blood hanging at the stairways and it look like gula gula (you know what i mean). but, that doesn't frightened us that much. we then climbed the stairs and explore the whole block. there's glass pieces shattered on the floor, spoil lifts, big wards and small wards, shattered mirrors and yeah graffiti on the walls. but, nothing happened at all. so we went down. and, we got to know that the building was part of the OCH building but its not the main building.

so, our tour guide brought us to the main building which was located down the hill. we then arrived directly infront of "Old Changi Hospital". once again, we explore all over the place. and yeahh at creepy dark areas, zaini and me did smell the kemenyan aroma. one of the incident was when all of us was going halfway down this dark stairway, and suddenly cold wind blew directly towards us and the smell of the kemenyan pierce thru my nose. and i turned around and asked zaini, "oi, kau ader bau ke tak siak?". he then inhaled the air again and he shouted, "da ah, jalan ahh, kiter pusing tempat lain dulu la". we walked back and then u-turn to the dark stairway again, but theres no eerie feeling or smell anymore. and we continued exploring while i took pictures of the interesting things there. and we slacked at one of the OCH basement as they request for smoking break. as we was talking, suddenly theres a loud noise coming from the room near us. we stand up and quickly walked away.

its 6.30 pm and we then planned to get out of OCH as its getting dark. we then walked out of the och passing by the Old Japanese School. we wanted to went into the Japanese School, but the Evtec security which protected the place arrived with a van. we ran and walked quickly towards the nearest bustop and we managed to escape from them. all of us then walked all the way to changi village to have our dinner there. and at around 8 pm we took 109 home. all of them went home while i slacked with daliana till 10 pm as its been months since we last met. thats all, much love guys!

pictures of the OCH outing ; http://www.mohdfaisal.multiply.com

so tomorrow is Monday. and im so geared up for school tomorrow. i've not seen you for nine days. are you avoiding me? or, am i a stalker. i wish that we were like months ago when we use to contact each other everyday. i miss those time whereby you always made my day. okay, i miss you. gadissekolahadalahcinta.

yesterday was a pretty great day for me. and i was so geared up for school yesterday. but too bad, i received an orange form due to some disciplinary problem. however, it didn't spoil my mood that much. okay, the teacher is so crappy! and yeah, i did focus in class yesterday and scribble notes during lessons. hip hip hooray for myself lah seyy. okay back to the story, so after school, proceed to block zero for cat feeding session with the langmates and some great humans. and finally, i've overcome my phobia with cats! a hip hip hooray for myself again lah sey. okay, i know its lame. after an hour sitting there, proceed to haugang mall to meet zaini and ida for awhile. eh no, not for awhile, its for hours! slack under the void deck with zaini for four hours as ida was in the saloon doing her hair. and it turn out to be nice lah ida. then ida treated me at magic wok as i've accompanied her dearest boyfee for four solid hours.

after the treat, they walked home with me. they then sat under the void deck while waiting for me to get change. friday is religious class day! and again, i was so geared up. then, they walked with me back to haugang mall again. thanks you guys! and so, met the usual people at bustop, fareez, bakir, arepp, haiikal, firhan and khai. and once again, we arrived late for madrasah. but thank god, theres no latecoming form there! and yeah, we combined class and i got to know that its her class too. but, shes absent. after religious class, went home with hudaa, ahhyin and firhan.

and today! yeahh, im now online early in the morning while humans are still sleeping peacefully. and worse, im late! coz, ssp will start in 30 mins time. but, who cares, my beautiful reasons always work on the teacher! hahahahaa, shhhh. and yeahh, today is the day where to watchout mates will be going to OCH. and yeahh, i can't wait for this lifetime experience. we will be going in the afternoon and maybe, at night too if everythings going on well. little cute ghost, we'll be there, so watchout! thats all, im running late! much love readers.

i fcuking miss you. and yesterday, i was hoping to see you comeback from your camp trip. and yeah, i did stare at the front gate every 10 mins. i wished that you are fine. and at friday night class, i was staring at the classroom door every 10 mins. i wished that you came for religious class. but, i didnt see you the whole day. and right now, im just waiting for this monday. i just miss you and also, the old you. and i don't mind if others say im a stalker bloke. im just in love. till here, gadissekolahadalahcinta.

school was great today. but, i miss her walking pass by the corridor. so yeahh, mdm zurina treated us ice-cream during ssp. thanks mdm zurinawati! im feeling lethargic during lesson. and i doze off during english lesson and that means im lack of sleep. and art lesson, we received our mid year assignment. ouh gosh, how am i going to handle my n level art and mid year assignment which both datelines are just few days apart. thanks to mdm noorlizah for her help all these while in class and i really appreciate it. i've made a study time table for myself and i hope that i can juggle those fears.

after ssp, went home straight and met hamimmah at her area and proceed to sengkang to meet rezal, mazlan and ainy. i realised that i talked alot today! i love being happy and tagging along with loud people. being in a too quiet surrounding can make me turn fcuking emotional coz negative thoughts can just kill me slowly. yeahh, we did art under the void deck and have a sing aloud session. its damn hilarious!
TELEPON, pon aper? PONDAN, dan aper? DANCING, sing aper? SINGAPORE, po aper? POPEYE, pai aper? PAISEH, se aper? SETAN, tan aper? TANGKIS, kis aper? KISS SINI KISS!
hahahaa, only they understand and that really makes me, ainy, rezal and hamimmah laugh out loud.

i miss your pretty smile. im waiting patiently for this friday. your name are now scribbled everywhere, on my desks, textbook, worksheets, diary, scrapbook, handphone and in my heart. i just miss you. can i have those time being repeated? much love, gadissekolahadalahcinta.

met hamimmah early in the morning at usual location. she just had an pretty haircut. so yeah, we took 27 after breathing in cold oxygen. while walking towards school, ain told me that gadissekolah will be having obs camp from today till friday. and, i was damn shocked.

i don't even know that she will be going off for camp today. okay, i can't expect much. im just a stalker. its saddening that i can't get to see her in school today. and yes, i fcuking miss her. i can still remember, last month, when she was off to overseas, she gave me her last message which is the sweetest thing ever which i didn't delete it till this point of time. but today, it seems to be different. she left without hello and even goodbye. i just hope that she's safe and sound there, amin.

when you're too in love to let it go...

STUDIES

i'll promise myself that at this point of time, i will start studying hard and pay 120% attention in class. i rather suffer this five years in school than suffering fifty years down the road. but, something is just pulling myself from studying. i'll fight back for sure. o' level malay is coming and n' level too. wake up faisal!

i want a tuition coz i feel that i cant cope with my studies alone. i need guidance. but, im lazy for a tuition class. okay, i think ssp already help me much.

LIFE

life is wonderful when i had friends all around me. thank you guys! you all are the greatest person on earth. my schoolmates, watchoutmates, msnmate, mldds mate and more! you guys rock my socks and you are the one who i can depend on and brightens up my day. and family, im not in a good term with them nowadays. okay, fcuked up.

dearest you

i can feel that you are avoiding me. when i read back your old sms to me, it lightens up my day. i just wished that i received those kind of sms everyday from you. i know that your phone are being confiscated. but im sure that your life are not being confiscated. i miss the old times when i use to see you in school and friday night class. at block zero where you dont dare to laugh while you only smile when someone creates a joke. on every friday night with your tired face and always leaning on your friends shoulder in the bus. i want it more. i miss those time, it really makes me happy. but now, i only see your empty face. however i swear, im still holding on like you want me to. gadissekolahtetapcinta.

yeah, we achieved silver for our syf malay contemporary dance. thank god that we maintain our standard and we were like one of the 14 school which gets silver. and worse, its shocking to hear that non of the group in malay contemporary dance achieved a gold. i love the last dance. thanks mldds crew.

school? ouh my, i'm still not into the mood to study. i guess, i will start studying hard by next week and i mean real hard! i need rest. and my mind are now full of negative thoughts and those maths, chemistry and other formulas is vanishing from my head slowly. i wish i'm as bright as those kids in express. they had beautiful life.

i felt so happy when you stand next to me. and i'm happy that i get to see you once again. and yeahh, you made my day. but when you are not there, it kills me slowly. gadissekolah, adakahsayastalker?

it was our last dance today, the last dance for the seniors. and syf just now was a total blast! all of us gave our best shot, thanks juniors. i'm effing glad but i'm upset too. i wish that there's no such thing as stepping down from our beloved cca. and it really makes me fall into tears.

it been four years being with mldds. the first year which was during my secondary one days, i was in dikir barat and i really detest tarian melayu coz its like so lembut but actually, its not! thanks to cikgu whom inspired me to love dancing. and i mean it, i love tarian melayu contemporary.
we had great kakak kakak and abang abang during those days. and year by year, the bunch of great people stepped down and mldds was continued by a newer and younger generation. last year, when they stepped down we felt so worried about our mldds future. and most gave us remarks saying that mldds will closedown as we are lack of manpowers. however, the mldds family grew bigger and bigger and we form a strong family.
we've suffered thru thick and thin together, laughing together, crying together and more. those stupid quarreling between each other and also within the other cca will also stay as memories. i swear that i will really missed the jokes made by our pretty teachers and students. and i will miss every thursday as we always had training those days. and most importantly, i will definitely miss the leypak session which was held after mldds at block zero. i hope, the juniors will still stay as one and develop mldds into a greater stage. make us proud, make the school proud, make cikgu lafrieda + cikgu faezah + cikgu azmi proud and finally, make yourself proud. i love the mldds family.

and behalf of the graduating seniors, i would like to say sorry to you guys if we scolded you or shout at your ears or whatever. i hope, all the things that we said will stay in your mind forever. and for myself, thousand of apologies for getting you people irritated and scolding you all these while. i'm really sorry. much love, mldds kids.

i didn't get to see you today, gadissekolahadalahcinta.

it had been a hectic week with tight schedule and lots of problems. and finally, the watchout mates made my day. yeahh, it was syafiqah's birthday. so shameer, firdaus, me and helmi met up at city hall to celebrate her birthday. first stop, pizza hut and thanks wan for the awesome treat. and it sure burn a hole in your pocket. after the treat, we proceed to esplanade and slack at the rooftop. we took pictures and joke around. well, firdaus was the last one to get it. hahaha. and DEPUTY SIREN perform at the chillout stage. the best local band for me now! 3-dash-1 + comic strip lead singer (shida) = DEPUTY SIREN. ouh my, great mixture! im gonna get all their song.

and i had a bad nightmare last night. i dreamt of the watchout mates including me went to Old Changi Hospital. but, zy, ida and syaf was not there. it was a guys scary day out. it goes this way. we, the watchout mates was so geared up to go to OCH to check out the place there. and one day, we might go there. but sadly, due to the dream last night i felt like not going. coz, its damn scary! but still, i wanna explore. ghost ouh ghost, i dont wanna see you! thanks.

i miss gadissekolahadalahcinta. where'd you go? i hope i get to see you today.

"should i hold on or should i move on?" i kept repeating this phrase when i saw you, when i miss you and when i love you. deep in my heart, i would like to hold on. but, my mind force me to move on. im so looking forward for monday, i just need to see your face, again. because, it really makes my day. and i wish that theres school everyday so i could see you. i don't mind about what people wanna say about me going crazy over you. from 24 january 2007 till now, i really wish that there wouldn't be a fullstop for this.

gadissekolahadalahcinta.

i really had no mood this few days. i really hope that i can concentrate like the others during lesson. mid year examination, n' level and o' level(malay) is just around the corner and im still putting my head down on the table. wake up faisal!

its the last four training for syf today. and, all of you guys really show a rapid improvement. im sorry for scolding you guys during training. i just need the all of us to be one and have a sense of urgentness. sadly, just now mdm faezah mentioned that the sec fours and sec fives will be stepping down from our cca by next week. and its saddening that we need to step down coz we wont be having any tuesday's and thursday's training anymore. and sure, i will really miss it after participating in mldds for four years.

thanks for the "hello" just now. and, you really made my day. but finally, it kills me. confusion and undecided decision kept intruding my mind. thanks, gadissekolah.

its a moody day today! okay, i failed my 2.4 km run by 20 seconds. damn it, i need to strengthen up my stamina. and during lesson, i really can't concentrate as it seems like my brain was not operating. and mldds, we did really great or should i say, awesome. but, its a fcuked up mood for me today. so, sorry for scolding and shouting at you guys.

i just don't know what to say. i'm just fcuked up with no reason. ask me why, i'm just in a state of mind.

well now, i really know how it feels when you are really into someone that you can't let it go. karma already hit me. and, it kills.

however, i'm still moving on coz still, gadissekolahadalahcinta. tell me that i'm dumb, but i'm really into her.

i just don't know what has got into me lately. i'm not concentrating in class and i already found a new hobby which is, sleep during lesson. and due to that, i didn't hand in the class work and also homework. its like im not participating in anything and i really deserved all the scoldings. and worse, n' level is around the corner. i need big help! i've missed too much lessons.

seven solid days to syf and i'm really so geared up. lets buck up mldds kids. we need to attain a gold or at least maintain silver okay!

yeahh, im just sick and tired of my surrounding and life. but yeah, always look on the bright side of life. and thanks to shaa as she made my day. miss townie!

i hope, its worth running after you, gadissekolah.

okay, patience is virtue. i know that im too into you eventhough my bestfriends kept telling me to stop and to go on with other ladies. thanks for your emphaty, guys.

but, i just can't. its been two months going on slowly with the flow. seeing her really makes me high. and now, i really miss your smile, your long messages, the long conversation in msn, your laughter and i effing miss you. i know, its hard to contact each other, but i'll just stay hold.

you once told me to stay there in your heart eventough you are confused. i swear, i will still stay there. and i hope, i will.

seriously i've changed now. i know people kept talking about my past about changing girls like as if im changing clothes. thats my past, and i admit it. but now, im just so devoted into you. i swear, its my first lifetime experience now.

i've troubled to much people by asking them about you and other stuffs. and, i can feel that im irritating. please, im just worried sick.
till here, love.

gadissekolahadalahcinta, janji.

after weeks of planning, finally it ended with a blast. yeah, it was a surprise celebration for the march babies, ahyyin, mazlan and fifi. we ordered canadian pizzas and a huge chocolate moszaiqqe cake for them. sedap kann?! hahahaa. after the surprise celebration, we took the train to orchard and then walk all over town. we then proceed to takashimaya where misunderstanding arise and finally THE SCHOOLMATES settle it with tears. i mean, the girls cried but not me,rezal and mazlan. a group hug really makes a difference.

took 171 to esplanade to chill there. while walking towards the chillout stage, i saw SRI HANIFAYANA. and i was so shocked that i nearly cry coz i fcuking miss my dear last ex. we handshake and chit chat for a while after nine months of not meeting each other. and ouh my, shes so gorgeous. after that we slacked by the bay as ainy's waiting to see his mr. saturday guy and hudaa waiting to see her mr. high guy. sadly, hudaa didnt get to meet her prince. so yeahh, we then walked back home at around 10.00 pm. its a day full of laughter, tears and surprises.

fcuking yes, i miss gadissekolahadalahCINTA. where'd you go? and, im so looking forward for school tomorrow. gadissekolahadalahCINTA, do come back.